Virus.

Let the virus down, wash away
and drown,
Frown, the silence, the virus
in this,

Bliss, downward, that
mind, remiss,
Thank you, obvious, oblivious,
dismiss,

Chances, in trances, wandering
numb,
succumb, this virus, beating
its' own drum,

Tender discourse, remorse,
begging, please,
Silence? Beating down this
disease,

Wakeful, wishing to sleep,
Marching with the
sheep,
Bad wolf breaking through,
of nature, cold and
true...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/30/2012

Trajectory Unknown.

Course, unknown, certainty
not shown,
Spark, small, but growing,
ever flowing, confusion,
In fusion, is this where you
want to be?

Reverse trajectory, but
point in present, some kind
of dichotomy,
Reactionary to the now, is this
really where you want to
go?
Face on the faceless, standing
proud and strong,
But somehow wrong, the turn,
but turning is the way,

From night to day, vast
difference,
Inference of what you thought
was right,
Yet fight, still, with yourself,
against the trajectory
unknown,

Own the matter and change
the mind,
Mind is all, but the leading
is blind,
Realization incomplete, wandering,
aimless, 'til the backups
deplete,

Retrace, rewind, delete...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/27/2012

Ritual.

Strong, solitude, solid
as the sacred
oak,
Thus spoke deafening
silence, drowning
roar,

Soar above, eyes
pierced deep
within,
That sacred line, cracking
bark to speak
again,

Green, seeping, deep
to heal,
Attending the wound of
which it cannot
feel,

Blessings, thrice, in
dressings, nice,
To fire, cleanse that
wretched soul,

Ribbons tethered, flapping
wind, weathered,
Never sinned, but fill the
hole,

Journey there, somewhere
without a care,
Strong, solid, in solitude
down there,

A ways back home, it
never burns away,
Drinking those eyes, praying
for just one more day...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/25/2012

Heaven.

Home for a moment, a
moment of pure
heaven,
Hold my breath, don't
dare count to seven,

Near as can be to
both, distance wiped out
for an instant,
Dream realized in a moment,
eternity in a second, not
resistant,

Warmth to give
comfort to those I
love,
Signs, insist, from
something high
above,

Just wait, what's time?
Eternity in a moment, even
as the clocks
chime,

Heaven, my heaven, don't
dare count to
seven,
Eyes open just to see, that
moment, yearned, deep
inside of me,

Beautiful as ever my
precious lady bug,
Glad to be there, forever
cherished hug,

You're warm now...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/22/2012

Heart and Soul.

Those feelings out, but
more within,
Ever more created, where
does it begin?

Upset, confused, the
feeling is known
well,
Tears glisten, hidden
behind eyes, they
swell,

Reaching for you to
find empty
air,
Reality? No. This
just isn't fair,

Waiting, in tatters, to
be once again made
whole,
To rest in those arms
and sooth this aching
soul,

Words are words, its'
the feeling inside,
That feeling comes to
light, it cannot ever
hide,

Believe, as you have,
because I am not
they,
I am me, and I mean
every single word I
say,

Fear not the outcome,
believe in this,
Love is strong, if you
let it, to bliss,
With a kiss...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/21/2012

Faithful.

They say home is where
the heart is,
Home is where you lay
your head,

Going home, that dream
out there,
Without you in my heart
I am as good as
dead,

Burning inside, searing
the soul,
Empty, ripped, exposing
that hole,

Every word, but the opposite
is true,
In writing, stinging, but that's
not the real you,

Love, unbroken, it can
if you let it,
If you believe in it, without
fear, so waiting, here
I sit...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/21/2012

Our Space.

Wake up, but not with
heart,
Whole damn world just
falls apart,

Eyes open, but mind is
shut,
Head straight down, held
in a rut,

Reaching out to wherever
you are,
Distance, great, but in my heart,
its' not that far,

Active seeking in this,
Just want to be right where
my heart is,

Home with you, there
in our space,
In our moment, in our
place,

Kicking it to background
silence and the sound of
your voice,
Singing, heart, waiting for
you here by my own
choice...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/21/2012

Hardest Climb.

Disorienting sadness, spiraling
madness,
Alone, disarray, crippling
dismay,

Missed, those parts, once
whole,
Aching soul, stitches not
enough, nothing to
fill the hole,

Tracing steps, straight down,
rock bottom, lose the
frown,
Fingers, worn, climbing, hard,
yet again, falling
down,

Eyes, hard pressed to see
the blue sky above,
Why must one always have to
miss the very people they
love?
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/20/2012

Better or Worse.

Distance, quiet, empty
space,
Lets take a walk in
that special place,

Do those things we
used to do,
Lower guards, open
up, no masks, just
me and you,

All the fears, all the
hopes,
All those smiles, and
the little gropes,
Down, slowly, those
contours, fast as though
slopes,

Walk some more, talk
some more,
In our place, in that
space forever
more,

Die each day when you're
not near,
Want, in every way, to hold
you near,
In that place to express you
love and fear,

Good and bad, happy
and sad,
But happy in the heart,
Walk some more to fix
what's come apart,

For better or worse,
'til death do us
part...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/18/2012

Content.

So soft, that caress, hands
to chest,
Just to rest, breathing, heart
beating, head lay gently,
Nestled, timeless, legs over
mine,

Savor, divine, this moment,
timeless,
Breathe to neck, relentless
contentment,
Enchantment, just there, in
our place without
a care,

Distant, but close, relived
day by day,
Though we're here, there
we always lay,
No need, no will to move,
just in those arms talking,
whatever did we say?

Just that voice, soothing
to my ear,
Holding you near as everything
seems so clear,
Content, nothing more, nothing
in that moment to
fear...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/16/2012

Unrest.

Home alone with all
these thoughts,
Dancing around like jabbering
robots,

No one talking, no way to
vent this thing,
Shivering, shaking, don't like
the song they sing,

Holding on tight to the
reigns of life,
Reaching out to avoid
that strife,

Get it out, get it away, breathing
hard,
Fighting to see just one more
day,

Which way to the track
now?
Which way back, and
how?

Desperately yearning, not
choosing to give in,
That face, those eyes, that
strength deep within...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/14/2012

Mend What Matters.

Please, just please, I want
to be home,
No more to roam, reminded
of want,

Haunt, inside, begging,
please,
No more separation, no more
segregation, not by space
or degrees,

Bleeding out, pleading to
god, fates, whatever
is there,
Scream and shout, and
I really do care,

Not okay, not even a
bit,
Get over it? Can't, mind's
phantoms chant,
Not a choice, never, even
before,

Love, it sticks, and this
is fucking sore,
This feeling had? Never
before,

Reaching out, opening up,
pleading for your
hand,
Fix it? Yes, but together
we must stand,

Pop goes the brain, teetering
on the brink,
Here I remain, begging, please
don't blink,

Instant come, instant gone,
but forever more,
Wishing, waiting to be
one...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/14/2012

Judgment.

Thoughts dancing endless, cannot
make them cease,
Seeking for release, yet waiting
just the same,

Inchless, movements, three
steps forward, two more
back,
What more to show, what
exactly I lack?

Downward spiral, out of
control,
Process, broken, empty
hollow hole,

Fill it, worthy, begging
on one knee,
Shaken, blurry, nary can
it see,

Groping, fumbled, around
in the dark,
Yearning, extreme, the feel
of that spark,

But on the fence, sitting,
unwilling to budge,
Though even in silence, still
the final judge...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/14/2012

Black Hole.

Replace the word can't
with won't and realize
judgment passed,
Based on the past, but
don't,
Don't realize that its'
here and now,

Choices abound, but
I'm worse than
them somehow,
So much worse, but
is it doing any
favors?

Pain comes in different
flavors and I reside
in hell,
This shell is caving, not
worth saving, at least
in the eyes that matter
most,

Host upon host, not one
of them true,
Not one of them matters
because they're not
you,

Throw it away because
it cannot be faced,
Decide, at once, that
it cannot be paced,

Happy? Not here, just
continued residue with
everything to fear,
Residual? No, no hate in
this heart,

Standing, taking it all in,
though it all falls apart,
Faceless among the crowd,
shroud, darkened, that light
too far,

Sub par, without you here,
in this place full of anger, betrayal,
and fear,
Been here before, why can't I
escape?

Shape, in the eyes that matter
most,
sub par, I feel, worthless
before the host,

Try, to the bitter end, to
fix it all, to let it
mend,
Yet sucked back in, it won't
let me go,
Doesn't bother with the pieces,
just swallows me whole...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/14/2012

Dream.

Nightmare in waking, eyes
open, shaking,
Body, tense and worn,
Sore and torn,

Reaching over to put my
arm around you,
Not there, empty space,
it falls right through,

Grasp the floor, don't
want to wake,
Eyes closed, pretend
its' fake,

Back to the dream, away
from this,
No need to scream, for
ignorance bliss,

Your face is there, laying
without a care,
Wrapped, entwined, still
that perfect pair,

Reality sets in soon, but not
just yet,
Take the time, away from it
all,
To lay with you and forget,
No distance, no wall,
Nothing against which to
fret,

Eyes shut tight, against
reality's bite,
Release and surrender
now,
But back again, not long,
somehow...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/14/2012

Conveyance.

Passion is not always
nice,
Choices between, though
never think twice,

Those moments, worth
far more than
conveyance,
Closer, still, despite
the distance,

Mad about you,
head over
heels,
Crazy, but true,
that's how it
feels,

Open, plain,
exposed,
Fearless, comfortable,
composed,

Right there, that's
it,
Quite a pair, every
last bit,

Missing, yet not,
first in every
thought,

In that way, you
get me,
Forever there, heart
and mind, you complete
me...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/14/2012

Tides.

No anger, no anxiety,
just open exposure and
honesty,
Reasonable? Hopefully,

In that place, secure,
arms, wrapped around
you,
Nothing else to fear,
Just love and the will
to be true,
There with you,

Happy, at all time, but
turbulent, sometimes,
That's life, as the clock
chimes,
To that place, the summit
of all climbs,

Perspectives shift, but always
back to this,
Just thinking of you is ever radiant
bliss,

Brushing all else aside, still
along for the ride,
Life is life, with the shifting
tide,
But changeless is this heart,
no matter how far apart,

Love you always, and love
you more,
Nothing to prove, just shift
and move,
Away from you now, the
worst kind of sore...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman 10/13/2012

A Walk in the Park.

Breeze blows, but everything
comes around,
Feelings, sound, and still
in the chill,

Will, fortunate, and can't
get my fill,
Not of you, and all the
things you do,

Deep inside, not willing
to hide,
Out in the open, along for
the ride,

Here for the duration, from
beginning to maturation,
Just you, in sight, just you,
one, but two,

That hand, soft, fingers
entwined,
Kiss, divine, seeking that
heart to unwind,

Open, exposed, just
for you,
Not composed, no mask,
no need to see
through,

Me, just human, only
human,
Not perfect, but still a
true man,

Before you, stand, hand
in hand,
Walking forever, but you're
the promise land,

Home, always, safe and
sound,
From start to finish, standing
to ground,

Just you in sight, no need to
fight,
No need for flight, just the
will to make it right,

Make it right by being me,
Keeping it open, straight, and
free,
So you can see, and never
wonder,

Asunder, torn, but upright
still,
Walking, gusts, in your presence,
no chill... Can't get my fill...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman 10/13/2012

Whole and Part.

Nothing to prove
and nothing but
this,
Though its' missed,
rejected, or
accepted,

Either way, never
regretted,
Always in love, forever
injected,

Never interject on
that one single
heart,
Though falling apart,
still, the pleasure
is mine,

Its' fine, but not,
all at the same
time,
Still here, still
waiting,
Never without for
that time; no
debating,

Those eyes, craved,
yearning, saved,
For that time, again,
returning and
saved,

Home again, but
this time whole,
Stay there; heart, mind,
and soul...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/11/2012

Intensity.

Down but not out,
Pain?
Immense..

Intense, hardly
focused or
thinking,

Blinking to fight
back leaking,
Memory, thought,
feeling,

Kneeling, unable
to stand,
Reaching out, but
for a particular
hand,

Breaking, shattered,
scared as hell,
Take a hammer to
this defensive
shell,

But still, focused,
even now,
Get back to home,
some way, some how...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/10/2012

Another Walk.

Amazingly busy
lady bug,
Always making time
to hug,

To walk and talk
and forget the
time,
Lost in the moment
until the clocks
chime,

Wish, so bad, to
leave with
you,
To be with home
and lay the
night through,

Short is fine, but
open is better,
Voice, so great, yet
even text and letter,

To hold you hand,
Walk, sit, or
stand,

Even just to stand
and talk,
Yearning for another
walk...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/9/2012

Alleviate.

Acting as though distant
friends,
Seeking to avoid repeating
trends,

But trends need not
repeat,
Somewhere in the middle
to meet,

That push takes
two,
Zero chance? Either way
I love you,

Change happens, and
yes, people can,
Proof positive, but
proof rejected,
Man bleeding, yet
still respected,

If only to show and
alleviate,
If only forward, never
to deviate,

Just with you,
But one has become
two...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/9/2012

Act.

Think I may, without
a doubt,
Inside stirring, reaching
out,

Need to be there, home
again,
Never without you,
yearning within,

Love the stirring,
Ever with you,
Focused, now, to
see it through,

Thoughts processed,
picture perfect
now,
Know when and
where, now exactly
how,

Can't help that
yearning,
Deep within for
you,

Can't help that feeling,
that heart within
is true...
-END-
10/8/2012
(C) D.C. Chapman

Intention.

Face reality day by
day,
Circumstances change
in every single
way,

Be the one to stand
above, stand out,
The one who whispers
as though a shout,

Take the power from
deep within,
Changed already, now
let her in,

Two become one to
radiate content,
Set the sites, one
intent,

Mind is mine, straight
and true,
To give the heart and
soul to you...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/7/2012

Knot.

Up when you're
there,
down when you're
not,

Waiting for the
blue light,
Stomach in a
knot,

Care when its' a
bad night,
Suffer not for the
lot,

Mind's eye dances,
trance on chances,
Avoidance of that
spot,

Refusal to accept
that,
Stomach in a
knot...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/7/2012

Silver.

The arches, pictured,
mind's eye, flickered,
To life, the idea
swings,
Glimmering, shimmering,
box open, of promise
and tidings it
brings,

Things in mind, the
plan,
Picture perfect, in the
mind of man,
Though rehearsals fail,
events, uncontrollable,
the intent remains
infallible,

Light reflects, shimmering,
from that small thing,
glimmering,
So a life with you it
might bring,
That's the song I sing...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/7/2012

Wheel Turning.

Its' okay to run your
wheel,
Though unknown, to
express how you
feel,

Guidance, there, from
the best source
of all,
Just reach out, let it go,
no need for free
fall,

Though stability
torn asunder,
The wheel, still, squeaking
like thunder,
Great, you are, staring
in wonder,

But wonder, not, of
things unknown,
Stability, within, just
as you've known,

Things, they change, but
some stay the same,
Some, still, come back, if not
just in name,

Laching out, the world
through and through,
Just to bring that stability
back to you,

Its' okay, somehow, some
way,
Head up, still here, and you'll
see a bright new day...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/6/2012

Walk.

Endless, timeless,
that face unchanged,
Placeless, now, this
yearning raged,

Helpless, this moment,
feelings closing in,
Closing the gap outside,
reaching out within,

'One more lap!' it
cries,
Hand, in mind, held
by the other,
It tries, yearns, give
it another,

End, even in timeless
now,
Hasn't let go, never,
yearning to get back
somehow,

But goodbye comes
too soon,
Walking, distant,
ignoring night and
moon,

Looking back, just
once more,
Wishing, only, to
see that face, once
more...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/6/2012

Tantra.

Anytime, anywhere, just
to see that face
again,
Moment, savored, just
to sink beneath the
skin,
Set within and lost
in you,
Caress, release, that
moment true,

Heart, centered, and
waiting still,
The last breathe away,
surrender to
will,
Throws in moment
that long caress,
Letting go, there,
sweet distress,

Tantric grip in that
abode,
Moment, savored,
passionate mode,

Sleep to dawn and
back again,
Waiting, still, beneath
the skin,
To sink within forever
more,
Taste, divine, in every
pore...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/5/2012

Display Case.

Candid, fully, the first
thing I wished to
say,
Hoping, praying, pleading
that you're okay,

Some way, some day,
back to the center
of your heart,
Waiting, still, even when
I fall apart,

None, not one, ever
felt that way,
Hoping, praying, pleading
that you're okay,

Love, a word, but fits
like a glove,
Above, it seems, looking
down on a dove,

Awake, wishing to sleep,
Smiling, wishing to
weep,
Maybe just a creep trying
to deal with himself,

On a shelf, collecting dust,
there to stay until I
rust,
Please, just please, no
touching the
display,
Hoping, praying, pleading
that you're okay...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/5/2012

Roller Coaster.

Fuck, just fuck, fuck every
last goddamn thing,
Maybe, just maybe, hanging
by a thread attached to a string,

They, just they, no I, so maybe
it may,
Black and blue, inside, run
through,
But marching forward just to
see you,

Fall of life, before winter's
song,
Path of pain, tread only by
the strong,
None stronger, still, weak,

Meak, bleak, but hopeful
still,
Empty, ghost, groping for
its' fill,

Dripping eyes, fighting,
thus it dies blighting,
Cries like thunder and
lightning...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/5/2012

Note.

Not the same song and
dance,
Distance, remorse, yet
normal at a glance,

Unsung swan song, marching
away all night long,
Today? Just today, but can it
be any other way?

Lost and found in a sea of
sound,
Forgotten notes six feet
beneath the ground,

Unfortunate blockage, sifting
through foliage,
Sea, feeling see, numb and off
the ledge,

Ok, its' okay, live and breathe
another day,
Sound, unheard, pressing blind
to lead the way...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/5/2012

Masquerade.

Confused, yet fine, sadness
confined,
Rewind, just a minute, short
and vague,

Irritation surge, breathing down
to calm,
Segregation verge, soothing
sound, just calm,

Mind racing, but fine, sadness
confined,
Refined, just a little, yet still
short and vague,

Saddest smile masked, eyes
closed tight, just
relax,
Its' fine, rewind, just a breath
to tame the mind,

A heartbeat away, yet still, just
still,
Waiting, regardless, unspoken
and nil...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/5/2012

Close to Home.

Never stop, never back
down,
Never surrender, though
I might drown,

Day to day, month to
month, year to
year,
Forget the horizon,
one foot, then the other,
the distance unclear,
Still here,

Steady in the wake of
pain,
Press on to HOME
again,
No place, but a face
and a name,

No shame in committing,
Never remitting,
Moving on? No. Moving
forward,
Onward, back toward
that same face,
That familiar place,

No more to roam,
yearning for HOME,
Her familiar touch,
That smile, those eyes,
They are HOME...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/5/2012

Cut the Cord.

No up from down, or
left to right,
Whichever, whatever,
left to fight,

Sever, cordless, floating
free form,
Bodiless, aimless, down
the spirit storm,

Pain no more, this
wretched scream,
End, so sore, this
terrible dream,

Eyeless, please, the
world unclean,
Left unseen, better off,
where the pastures
are green...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/4/2012

Continuous.

Asking to show, truth,
not making a show,
Take it fast, or take it
slow,
However you really
want to grow,
Still here, just want you
to know,

Believe it or not, it is
what it is,
Changing is easy in
light of grievances,
Show you, you'll see,
then you'll know it
really is me,

Even still, show you
further, for years
and years,
Continue to love you
and alleviate your
fears,
Whipe away the tears...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/4/2012

Incomplete.

Same thing again and
again,
Lock it down deep
within,
Been there, done that,
but this really isn't
the same old
hat.

Rather open up
and let you
in,
Take time to heal
and start again,
But with you, only
you,
Apart, empty, together,
strong enough to
see it through.

Just you, and me
too.
In that place you said
was closed and
cold,
Still there, waiting,
Patience, unseen,
shivering, but
bold.
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman.
10/3/2012

Pariah.

Like a Leper by any
other name,
At a distance, held in
contempt and
shame,
Playing the blame
game is still back and
forth,
Whatever worth, hidden,
as a stranger in every way
shape, and form...

Untrustworthy over something
ingrained,
Something to overcome, something
needs regained,
Yet no help, no hope, despite
strides to the contrary,
Steps met as if lies, is this
just temporary?

Liar! I don't believe you,
the words ring through,
but true? No.
Not so. Not from this
end.
A chance to show?
Hope so...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/2/2012

Chakravartin.

Questionable, jumps, it 

slumps back, 

Attack the front, but it

takes the rear, 

Volatile stability, cohesion

in fear, 

That deep within, but

without, so again, 

Where and when??

-END-

(C) D.C. Chapman

10/1/2012

Plea for Reprieve.

Dammit please talk to
me,
Something more than
binary,
More than yes, no,
or I see.
Maybe that's a
trinity?
Something more than
that.

Break through, let
it fly,
Let me in or I might
die,
Need not, its' a question
of want,
Choices abound, not
a question of
can't.

Flaunt the word, but
please say more,
Something, anything, just
segregate me no more.

What was there is
there,
I know you care,
Emotionless? No, response
to others,
It lay obvious and bare.

That one hurt...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/1/2012

Adrenaline.

Cracks abound as it
all falls down,
Go another round til
it finally hits the
ground,
Numb surface, panting,
heart beating, mind
racing,
Ranting... Something,
Nothing, shouting,
Cracks the head, unknown
from whence it came,

What a shame it fled, before
the score was bled,
Panting, concern, but bitter
dead, lost in the head
as the moment's a blur,
All but the madness, the
sadness, and thoughts
of her,

But then of the other, that
helpless other,
Lost in chaos somewhere
on the streets of
purgatory,
Mind snaps back, reboots,
same old story,

Concern, sadness, fingers
still numb,
Walk on, safety, feeling
really dumb,
Sane? Couldn't be more
plain,
Half whit without a brain,
Standing, breathing, letting
it drain,

Tears and fears, slumped,
back to the beginning,
Three steps forward, two
more back,
Head spinning, gray
and black...
-END-
(C) D.C. Chapman
10/1/2012

Nihil.

Once spoken, shorter,
avoidance,
Annoyance? Sorry, but
still shorter,
Nil response, but spoken
silently,
Between the lines, quietly,
yet uncertain of
what to say...

Press on, another day,
once spoken,
shorter,
Words shield in persona,
falsified to hide,
Hide what? That side
unable to steel,
Feeling just to feel,
but hurt, fear, anguish,
the marrow that
molds the...

Most meaning in
letting be,
Letting go, to wait
and see,
Wait to wait, just
longer still,
Nil response, still
unspoken,
Unproven, left
broken...
-END-
(C)D.C. Chapman
10/1/2012